Well, I am back.  It has been awhile.  I have so much going on and really didn't feel like writing.
I have had some major changes come into my life.  I did not respond well to them.  But everyday is getting better.  While the major changes were unwanted, I have made some minor changes that were not really wanted but needed.
I have been changing things around the house.  working so much that when I do get to bed, I just drop.  I have made so kind of change 
in every room.  The major changes, kitchen & my bedroom.
I love the changes!  I never really used color before.  My husband was a plain kind of man.  So...... Color is the first word people say when they come over.  The second...Wow!
My kitchen is a warm chestnut brown.  For curtains, I went with a orange with small yellow & green flowers.  Cleaned out cupboards, moved appliances around.  I enjoy cooking much more.
My bedroom was soft beige walls, black & grey bedspread.  Some ugly like beige & 
Burgundy curtains.  Well, the walls are still the same color but the curtains are red.  Yes, I said red.  Bright red with white flowers.  Bedspread is not quite done. (I am making)  But it has red, black, & white in it.  Brightened the room bunches. 
I know my friend, Mary tells me all the time, "baby steps", but I had to take big kid steps right now.  It is part of my grieving process.  Everyone 
grieves in their own way and in their own time.  this is how I am doing my.
I also have been exercising, losing weight, changed my hairstyle, growing my nails.  Many changes now, let's see how long they last!